It’s been 5 days since we decided to break up. It’s devastating I know. I tried to hold on but what’s the point? He gave up. He’s tired of all these shit that has happened.  I was really wondering though… If he really loved me, he wouldn’t give up.  For the very last time that we talked, I could see nothing but anger in his eyes. I would like to give him a lot of rundowns on what I really felt during the last days of our relationship but I couldn’t speak up, not for the fact that I was guilty nor I’m a scaredy cat but seeing him makes me feel vulnerable. Makes me feel weak. I should’ve slapped him hard, make him feel the pain he made me feel but no, I couldn’t do it. All I could think was trying my best to save it all, how much I loved him and how much I would sacrifice just to make him stay… But thinking aside, thinking of how much he hurt me, how much he made lame reasons to put up with, I doubted if he truly loved me from the bottom of his heart. If he really did, he would choose to stay. He wouldn’t change me. I wouldn’t change for God’s sake, if I’m “OA”, “himi” and etc, I would stay like that for the rest of eternity.  If he really loved me, he would choose to accept and understand MY FLAWS, MY IMPERFECTIONS.  If he really loved me, he wouldn’t get ANNOYED.  “Na annoy nako nimo since ga cdu ka.” Gaawd, if you told me that in the first place, I would gladly make some adjustments. How about you tell me that we wouldn’t see each other even for just one week or two but NO. I never heard such thing but instead you continued showing your coldness.  I couldn’t bare the pain you’ve caused me that’s why I needed help. I needed my friends but I NEVER told them to text you or make you feel pressured. Come to think of it. would they text you if you didn’t do anything wrong? I see the point. You feel pressured because of my friends.  You got tired of receiving long text messages.  But you wouldn’t receive such if you treated me right, dear.  If only you knew what to do, if you only knew how to accept your faults, if you only knew how to handle your anger, if you only knew how to prove your  Sorry’s, if you only knew how to handle your pride. I would gladly accept you back in my life.  But there’s no point of turning back time cause all was said and done.  The situation’s getting blurry and I know you wouldn’t come back. You chose to leave me in pain and leave me in this kind of situation.  Even if you wouldn’t say it, I know you’re happy with your friends.  I know you wouldn’t trade them for the world.  Nothing would ever break the relationship you have with your friends and I know that.  I accept that. It cut me like a knife when you said you’re tired of me and you needed to leave. I’m in an inevitable pain right now.  The pain of knowing you would never come back because you’re gone for good and you’re happy with your life now. 

I am starting to move on from what happened.  Life goes on without you.  I didn’t regret meeting you because at some point in my life, you made me happy, the best way I could possibly be.  Thank you for being a part of my life.  Thank you for the 4 months of happiness, tears, joy and being in-love.  I loved you so much, Arp, from the bottom of my heart.  I wish you nothing but the best in life.  And if ever you will fall in love with a new girl, please take good care of her and make her feel loved always.  Thank you for the memories, for the laughter.  I will miss you. I will miss us.  Goodbye.

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Putangina ito yung AUDI A9? Teka ano ba yung binili na kotse ni Christian Grey para kay Ana? Putangina AUDI A9 Yata ‘yong pwet na ‘yon, sana naman ako nalang si Ana o. Pukingina. [Pero basta kasi may AUDI A chorva ‘yon]

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momomonyeen:


1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile…

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